Wednesday, October 05, 2005
May 21, 2006 In search of happiness.... When does it all begins? I guess it begins when the day you are being born. I reckon for the first 365 days of your life - you are happy. Especially after mom change your diapers. You feel dry and clean...... Childhood time are sometimes filled with happiness or saddens. I had a happy childhood - full of love from all the people around me.
My happiness ended drastically 11 years ago - when one phone call said it all. I didn't believed it - how could it happen - the man I love and worshipped...Dead. He was my father - my mentor. The day he died - my life and my should died with him.
Since that day - I have struggled with my life. Bad things happen one after another - that tested my faith in God. Though I prayed and asked for answers - nothing came. What came my way was the toughest test that I barely survived. I almost ended my life - what life if its filled with disappointment, pain, sorrow and heart breaks.
Each new year - my prayers was for death. But God never grant me my wishes. I'm still here - still going thru all the pains and suffering.
I wished people stopped hurting me
I wished people stopped telling me lies
I wished people let me die....
Why make promises - only if you intend to break them
All I asked was to be loved....
All I want is the happiness that I lost 11 years ago
Why God... Cant I be happy
Why people says they love me - but hurt me in the end
Why, how and where did I go wrong
Vittoria juz left the building<33